I’ve decided to get my reflective essay written for me and I feel terrible

I came to a decision today and I decided I couldn’t put it off any longer. I have been considering getting my first reflective essay written for me. The reason for this has been outlined earlier in my blog, but basically I’m just not confident I can write and construct a reflective research paper to the standard I need to.

Rather than submitting something rubbish, I decided to get some proper writing help by ordering one online. I did it today and it took 10 minutes and turnaround time should be less than a week.

I’ve decided I’m not going to just hand in this reflective essay as it is, I’m not going to cheat that much. Rather, I’m going to use it as a platform to build my own version from.

I know it’s still cheating and I now am doing the wrong thing, but what I am going to do is use it to get some help with my writing style, so that I can develop things myself. I feel I need to see how things should be structure, or maybe how things should be structured so that I can then build on that and for my own opinions and style.

I think it is going to take some time and I’m thinking I am going to order a few essays online before I get to the stage of just being able to do the myself. I think it will be a positive thing for me now because I think it will give me confidence to write any type of essay in a way that I haven’t before.

I have told my wife and she was obviously of mixed feelings, but I think she understands where I’m coming from and she has said as long as you can reconcile it and as long as you learn from it and don’t just use it as an easy way out then she is cool with it. So I suppose that’s a good thing getting that reassurance from her.