This is a very difficult blog post for me to write because I’m not sure I really want to even admit it to myself, let alone put it in writing, which is admitting it is the whole world, even if nobody really reads it.
The problem is that I have not really had much academic structure in my life before starting this course, so I am really not educational and when it comes to writing I’m not very good at all.
I have got to write a number of reflective essays and reflective research papers for my course and I have no idea what to do.
I have spoken to people but I’m so concerned that I will get this wrong and my first year will be dragged down by my inability to write properly and structure these things that I am going to mess things up. I might panic and then give up completely and that will be a disaster and a waste of time, effort and money.
The thing is that I have to hand in my first reflective essay in a months time and I’ve tried preparing for and I’m really struggling.
One idea I have had is to try a site like emergencyessay.com, there are lots of services like these guys out there. You submit details about what you want and the standard you want it written to and they will write a high quality persuasive essay for you.
But I’m not just cheating for the sake of it, I’m going to use it as a springboard. I’m going to learn from the structure that is given to me, and I’m going to edit it to make it more my own. So I’m hoping that I can use my cheating to learn, develop my own style and structure and then be able to do it myself very soon.
I actually feel a little better just writing this now, it’s therapeutic and it feels like I’m alleviating my guilt if only just a little bit. Obviously I don’t want to get writing help all the time, and I don’t want other people write my course essays for me all the time, that will sap my enthusiasm and my pride. But I feel that I do need to do it now.